Haiiz...siian...now adays dun really feel very happy...dunnoe why leh...frenns make miie laugh but after a while..start to feel lonely...I did wrote in my journal to Ms Leung..she said tat I am nort being dramatic in my blog[Which I HOPE so.=xD]..and I 'm juz onli blogging out all my problems,sorrows n feelings...
No matter how hard I tried,I still can't make myself to ferrgive someone..and it is really hard for miie to trusted/believe another person again..I dun wan to hurt my frenns' feeling[huiiqi,shu feng,cassandra.etc .]by nort trusting them...I did mentioned this beferr to cassandra..think she understand...but she can't do anything about it..and I noe the problem lies on miie...I've juz read some ppl tag on the tagboard..this guy sae"u must believe in yrself beferr u can trust other ppl."Quite true about it...but how can I trust myself..as in wat ways?? Make myself to trust the others?? I can't do tat...I meant I can't possibly able to do tat...I dun have the guts..I dunwan to get hurt,betrayed again...I'm afraid of losing frenns,hurting myself more and more deep...wait..controling my emotions...*...
Done...I also felt very frightened when someone told miie this; The one hu is yr bestest frenns,will be yr worst enemy in future ." It is true..I did believe in tat...sigh~ Worry about this and tat..omg..my brain is gonna burst!! Luckily now all frennshiip problems are "solved"....I have at least some time left for myself...some times at nitez sleeping will also think of all this...haiizz....wat can I do?? Yea,now if someone* is reading this will think tat it is craps ar...go ahead and comment wat u want...I won't give a damm to it...anyway is yr mouth rite,I dun have the rights to control u...
Hmm...readed some of my past posts...oh my god...most of them are my problems...only recently some of them are in a happy mood...ahhhhh!!! I'm so pathetic mann...really felt like giving myself a hard slap siia...OMg...wat can I do??? But all I can think is all this..how m I going to think of the positive ways??
Ok...gotta stop myself to continue writing liao..have to start on my physic test ler..see ya,peeps!!
Good luck in yr physic test!! An to myself too!! =))