Back .. after a week ...

Done most of my embroidery, left the last part of the beading area .
Did my revision too..printed out the test papers that Mdm Rohaila sent to us but only a few set .
Ran out of printer ink :/
Still haven't gotten back my damn handphone yet ..

Roughly 1 month left ...


Basically did a lot of thinking and reflections on many things .
I knew I have to grew up , I have to think of my own now .
No one is able to solve it except myself .
I can't run away from reality, I guess .
Somehow, it will have to come to an end .

I can't add anymore burden for my Mom now .
No matter how many months , how many years I have left of this special feeling now ,
No matter how much longer it will last , I will do my very best to it .
Even if I have to be harsh , I won't let it affect my Mom .

My family are not rich like you , you won't understand a single thing at all .
Stop saying all those craps . Treasure what you have now .
Even if I have work & study at the same time , I won't come to you for help .
Who care whether your father is rich or not , so what?
I don't need your hypocrite acts and any help from you , get it clear?

I have been a coward person , I admitted it .
If being a coward can avoid any troubles , I gladly accepted it .
But that doesn't mean that you can lie to me as you wish .
I believed you at first .. and contiune to believe your dumb , stupid & childish lies for a freaking damn four years .
I suspected it last year, and finally things turned out everything as I have expected . Your lies have already been exposed .
How? By yourself , of course . You are too careless , I guess .
I'm observant . I observed what you have been doing all these while .
And you carelessly, leaked out your tails .

I was truly disappointed in you .
To think that I'm such an idiot to believe you till now ..
Well , eventually I have to come out of my turtle shell isn't it?
I have to protect myself , of course .
I'm clear minded now and I knew what I am doing .
I knew what is right & what is wrong .

I have great friends who truly understand , know & believe me , but not you .
If you want me to respect you , and hell , you should also do your part & respect me too!

Oh, and this is your problem between you and him , don't get me involved in your personal stuff!

I'm not changed and I won't ever change for anyone .
If I know I'm in the wrong , I'm willing to apologize .
But now , it lie in yours .

I won't regret knowing you .
I learnt a lot from you, in fact .
I will protect them by myself .



To: SF, YL, LL, J, L, IW , LL , J , G

Thanks for always being there for me when I need it .
Thanks for always be my listening ear .
I truly appreciate what all of you have done .
You girls are great :D


For now , I need peace .


It doesn't matter where you go in life ,
What you do or how much you have.
It's who you have beside you .

Life simple pleasure are life greatest treasure .

Broken shards cast illusions.
Casted aside by my youthful mistakes,
I hinder in regretness.

As despair on leafs,
I'm forced to face my descendence.

Thoughts of what could have been constantly displaced.
Feats of my mind, died to take this dance.